I relived tonight just like old times
Locked all my doors, and closed my blinds
My phone unplugged, my windows all locked
I sat for a while, and myself i rocked
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My mind went through old dreams i've had
A poisoned girl that you made sad
I stared in the mirror a while at me
And all i could see was your words "ugly"
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Cocaine poured on my mirror cold
Made fine with my razor then lined in rows
A straw from my cup cut partly in half
My nose in a playground that made me laugh
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It made me want more, it made me paranoid
But i had to find a way to fill this void
It related with me and how i feel about you
It was hard to put down, hard not to do
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Mirror all clean and my sleeves pulled up
I took that razor to see my blood
I ached to feel just one thing inside
The lines of my pain have your name outlined
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I twirled my long hair through my fingers red
I rubbed my neck, and wished on death
I saw your face as i closed my eyes
I stopped laughing when you said "Just go die"
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My tears dripped down my bloody wrists
My body shook as i made a fist
I punched my leg and i pulled my hair
I had nothing to lose, you didnt care
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I tasted my blood and my eyes opened slow
I wanted to love you, but you had to go
I'm just another line in your huge chalkboard
Of women you had, but then ended up bored
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Each time i hurt from your words of hate
I cut some more for your small mistakes
If you had trusted in my warm soul
I'd have led you to beautiful places untold
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Now that i've relived this pain tonight
It wasn't my time, to pass on and die
I had some visions of you and me
Now go with her, and smile and be free
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I've played in this playground at times before
The devil he took my heart and tore
He swings me forward then pulls me around
And welcomes me to his red playground
 

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By Carla McCoy (OreO)

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